How do you let go

This time go for it? But how? How do you let go of someone you love? Especially if it has been 8 years! You have tried your best, patience, well, its definitely your game but even that is running out. Whats your plan is not his? So why be stuck in it?

Its always easier said than done. Many has said let go!Acknowledge the end! Accept there's no future and reestablish life! But how?! How to do that when you are feeling so miserable?

Well everything happens for a reason. Accept
that reality, move forward, plan for your future!

But how to forget the past when it is there before you?!

Let go! Free yourself from the hurt!

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Lombok Here I come

I am going LOMBOK...yeah....bored and sick of my life here....If I can go far on my own, I would have done it! Stay away and be far and be happy for at least a month! But too bad, I can't. So this short trip is fine!

Point of no return

Time and again I told you its over
Time and again I took cover
By thinking you are the perfect lover

Time and again you hurt me
Time and again I let it be

I'm tired of the cry
My patience is running dry

The only thing that is keeping me strong
Is this love I have inside

How long more can I endure
That I can't tell for sure
Thought this love we have is pure
You have tinted it to a point of no cure

Tuesday

Today is Tuesday
I started the day
Feeling gay
But you treated me like hay

Come what may
I'l make sure I don't pay
By keeping at bay
And stop the play

I thought you'd stay
That's what you say
So I just followed you way
But I see that I am heading for the slay

2001 to 2008

Dislikes when first met
Won't last was the bet
Mind was already set
That you would be thrown off the jet

But stayed as friends we did
I think I did my fair bit
To keep up the lid
And we really hit

What was friendship has changed
Into something strange
We went out of range
And put me in lange

An ultimatum I have decided
To leave coz I am jaded
The dreams I had had faded
With my heart embedded

A Glare

You said you can't say it
I know you aren't
Trying to force you to say it
Is something I can't

I have made a choice
Through the coy
I am creating all the joys
Thinking it is just a toy

I know I have said it before
And its a real bore
I need to get to the core
Before I walk out of the door

Friends, we are
Who have crossed the bar
A game that went to far
Have created the friendship
Ajar

Before it is too late
And leaving it to fate
I am opening the gate
And let go all the hate

It is clear
My dear
Of your fear
To set the gear

Coz love is not there
And you dont dare
Coz it may not be fair
As it is a glare
That you dont care

What is Happening

Why have I not been updating?
Coz so much had happened
And I lost count of them

Time is not on my side
It only makes me tired
Thinking of tomorrow

Why must tomorrow comes
When I am still unhappy of today

Celebrate Living

Why are we sad of small matter
When they tried so hard to live
Why do we keep complaining
When they are happy to see the day

Are we ever thankful of life?
When they struggle for theirs
Are we appreciative of our surroundings?
When they work hard to stay living

Travelogue: Bukit Tinggi Colmar Tropicale

I didnt get a chance to go far as I only had a short freetime due to my 'maid' duties. So I went to Bukit Tinggi and Kuala Lumpur in Malaysia instead with my friends and my sis. We set off at about 8 am. But reach KL at 4 pm. Super long journey. Pretty tiring too. Then we set off to Bt Tinggi after that. The place was really beautiful

Love

Maybe one day, you'd love me the way I loved
Maybe one day, you care the way I cared
Maybe one day you'd be missing me
Coz I will no longer be there

Maybe one day, you'd want me the way I wanted you
Maybe one day, you'd cry for me the way I cried for you
But maybe on that day,
I will not be there for you
Coz maybe that day, I do not want you

Love or love lost?

If you love it let it go, if it never comes back, it was never meant to be. Is this true?

Quotes

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

The worst way to love someone is to sit next to them, knowing they don’t love you back.

Why is the heart the most important organ if it breaks so easily?

I don’t run from you, I walk away slowly, and it kills me knowing you don’t care enough to stop me…

I am quick to give my heart away so you took it and throw it away quickly

Where there is LOVE, there is HURT.

Never make someone your everything, because if you lose them, you have nothing.

Why do I keep coming back to you?
Because iIam a fool that believes in hope

Memories

Looking back
This beautiful memory
Will stay deep in my heart

I may keep myself in this fantasy world
But the reality wakes me up everytime
I've invested a lot of time
With nothing in return
Only an illusion

The days we had are good
But I can't have the memories haunting me
So I'm backing off

Surely
These memories are preserved
Deep in this heart of mine
You will be there
Forever

A maze

Look me up when you are dizzy,
When everything is fuzzy,

But when between us is hazy.
The solution is easy,
Am I so mousy?

Are you that crazy
That act is gauzy
Because you are lazy,
So it's cozy
To leave when you are busy
And leave everything misty?

Well, I know I am a nobody,
Just to make them happy
You'd listen to everybody,
And leave me looking sappy?

What is wrong with life?

Oh God, I am so not looking forward to Monday when I will have to take up the duties of my maid for 3 weeks. It is rather sad and miserable to spend the holidays like that. But I dont have a choice.

Oh God, why must it be that way? Am I not destined to be happy? Am I that bad a person that I must stay unhappy all the time?

Oh God, could this be a sign that I should let go? And learn to focus on whats there and not what's not around?

Oh God. I know I should stop questioning. I asked too many questions, all of which have no definite answer.

Male Versus Female

Male Versus Female Jokes
The difference between men and women:A man is driving up a steep, narrow mountain road. A woman is driving down the same road. As they pass each other, the woman leans out the window and yells: "PIG"!!
The man immediately leans out his window and replies with "B-----!"
They each continue on their way, and as the man rounds the next corner he slams into a pig in the middle of the road.

Thats just an opening joke. On a serious front, are there glaring differences between the two genders?

I have identified some difference and have taken the liberty to look them up in different websites and compile it here.

Differences
1. Men are stronger than women
Women are actually biologically stronger than men, especially in the first few years of their lives. More males die before born than females. Delevopmentally, males lag behind and men die early than women all over the world.

2. Males are more intelligent than females
Based on a finding, it is true, but there's a disclaimer as the research is done by a man. He claimed that men are five points ahead on IQ test during the adulthood stage. Men are more likely to win Nobel prizes and achieve excellence simply because they are more intelligent than women, according to a controversial male academic.

3. Men's brains are larger, but as they age, they also shrink faster than women's brains.
This may account, scientists say, for the fact that there are many more male mathematicians, airplane pilots, bush guides, mechanical engineers, architects and race car drivers than female ones. On the other hand, women are better than men in human relations, recognizing emotional overtones in others and in language, emotional and artistic expressiveness, esthetic appreciation, verbal language and carrying out detailed and pre-planned tasks. For example, women generally can recall lists of words or paragraphs of text better than men

4. Women use more of their brains when they think.
Women use the whole brain for activities but men halved that.

5. Women talk more than men.
Women talk almost three times as much as men, with the average woman chalking up 20,000 words in a day - 13,000 more than the average man. Researchers have found that connecting with another through talking will trigger the pleasure centers in a woman's brain, a high second only to an orgasm. And, if that wasn't enough, the simple act of talking triggers a flood of brain chemicals which give women a rush similar to that felt by heroin addicts when they get a high.

6. Women are better at distress sound
I can't find a valid source of that.

6. Men will think about sex more often than women.
Another topic that have many controversial differences.

I am sure there are many more differences between the two genders. Like they said, Men from Mars and Women from Venus. They are totally different but yet they are happy together.

Friends

You are good friends
You look good together
But yet, there can never be anything more

Mixed generation with different concept of commitment

A: He is happy with her but yet they can't be together cause she sees lots of fault in him

B: They are happy together, but the relationship with like an affair. She is hidden everywhere.

C: She is in love with her, he sees her as a "Fun Friend".

D: They are happy together, he sees them together but he can't see himself being committed.

Have you encounter such a situation? More often than not, these are the things that happened these days, the mixed generation issue, it is called. Well, how then can we unhooked this problem and create a better understanding of the two genders? I don't have answers to all the questions. Maybe you have?

My Kids did it!

I am in high moon when I found out one of my students is offered normal acad stream. But in the midst of all the celebration, I had one kid who failed. It was so sad. Being new in this, I had problem informing him that he didn't make it. What was worst when he actually said, "You told me if I work hard, I'll pass. Why I didn't pass when the rest pass?" I was suddenly in tears. I didn't have a reply. I know he has tried his best. I have seen a lot of improvement in him. I know with the right push from the right people, this boy will be able to make it. He just needs more confidence. Today, his mother finally decided to let him repeat another year. I am glad she made that decision. I hope he will make it next year. I've told him to approach me anytime if he needs help. I hope and pray I wont be too busy and be there for him. I want to ensure this kid make it next year.

To my student, Wei Lin, congrats. I am happy with your achievement. I want you to continue to work as hard and achieve your dreams, whatever it takes, perservere and move on. Always remember the fighting spirit.." DIE DIE MUST TRY". Never give up. To the rest, strive harder, the road may be a little bit longer and harder, but that does not mean it is close. It will be open as long as you continue to drive and push your way up.

To all my "Kids" congrats.