What a Journey!

You must be thinking I am gone and back...well no...the thing is...this trip...to Sabah has become the most challenging trip of my life...and its only to Malaysia! Gosh,...my friends and I lost money because we were cheated by a guy from Sabah name Ahmad...the idiotic man who used our money, probably for gambling and did not book our Kinabalu longding. He caused a lot of problems for us...and Ive made several...countless calls to the idiot just for the money...bloody toot...anyway...after all that thank God...with Yana's effort...we finally got another package...hopefully it wont be a problem this time round...and finally...I am gonna climb Kinabalu...when I am back...I shall post some beautiful sight I capture there...hopefully I am able to climb up...coz I am kinda troubled about the fact that I am going there actually...a bit worried...and after the trip...I shall go KL...meet my NIE mates...yeah...peeps...see ya there...till then...dont miss me so much...and people in Singapore too...miss me lots ya...hehe!

School's out

A few days back, I did my lasttttttttttttt paper...I sure felt relieved but there was also another feeling..fear of the future. From now onwards, life will be dedicated to work. And I have to move a step in life..Well, ready or not..here i come. I dunno if I am gonna be good at it...Ive been blessed for the last 2 months(though it can be rocky) and the last pract...but that doesnt mean...the journey ahead will be easy...I am sure there will be rocky moments and I need to persevere and I sure hope I am strong enough to do all that. For all my buddies in the same boat...cheerios for us...and to our new beginning

Life

Life endless pressure
Drives one to madness

Life endless sadness
Drives one to nothingness

Life treasures
Drives one to greed

Life challenges
Drives one to meanness

Life stature
Drives one to pain

Could one have been thinking too much
Could one succumb one's own desires

Maybe one should regain one's life diamonds
And sort out the gold
To have life joyful moments

When I am gone

When I am gone,
Would I be missed?
Or would I be forgotten
Like a decayed leave?

If you are gone
You shall not be missed
As you never leave my heart

Roller Coaster

How is you life like?
Mine has been uneven
Sometimes up sometimes down

Have you ever taken a roller coaster?
That is how my life has been
Sometimes heaven, sometimes hell

Have you ever watch a movie
It depicts my life
Sometimes good sometimes bad

What about your sleep?
How has it been?
Mine has been sometimes peaceful, sometimes disturbing

So what is routine about my life?
Waking up at the same time everyday
Going through the same motion in life
Sleeping at the end of the day

Is that a routine?
Or is that life simplistic view?
What is wrong with life?
When no one is happy with the roller coaster

Sick Joke!

Pissed
Is that an understatement?
Indeed it is!

Angry
Is that too much?
Gee, who cares!

Throwing words because of frustration
Is that valid?
To hell I care!

Excuses
Do I take it?
I don't know!

Irritated
Is there a cost to it?
Yes, especially when you felt used!

So piss off!
JOKERS!

Work

I am depressed
With what I heard
Though I foresee the chances
Though it may not be that bad
It saddened me nevertheless

I have nothing against anything
Just that I'd rather not be among those
Who drive themselves crazy

I have no wish to have work take over my life
I have no plans to make work my life
I have no desire to forgo my life for work
I have no intentions for all that!

I see depression settling in
I feel immense pressure
Can I say no without any repercussion?

For every bad day...

For every bad day,
There will be a good day for you!

This is what my kid friend, Vish (you agreed to that nick Vish) said once when I was complaining about a series of bad day. And true enough, after a downfall of bad days, a good day came. Everything went the way I wanted them to be. Everything went smoothly, without me complaining about a single thing.

Anyway, the last few days have been hell for me....things have not been going my way. Been having bad dreams, been sick, was getting angry in school....all in a series...and kinda tired...so now I am thinking...when is the one good day coming....please good day come soon....coz I am rather torn rite now...maybe first of all...I need to visit the doctor...probably I have been feeling terrible these days partly because I have not been feeling well....been down with a flu....blame this on Julian....off coz...haha.And since saturday, been feeling sick on and off. And me...off coz...refusing to visit Mr Doctor...gonna visit Mr Doc soon when I am not better....darn...there my money will fly away.

WHY??

Misery,
Came crumbling back
With no signal
You entered my life
Made me ramble
Incapable

Misery,
With an increasing anger
Without any end
With the troubles
THE SHACKLES

And this time,
Misery...
Came with a sharp pain
Will finally succumb to it?

Should I stay or run away?
Escaping is pointless
Surrendering is the only solution
With all the troubles!

No, stay strong!
Fight till the end.
Stay in focus!
Coz end is near.

Will see them proud
Will be standing tall
Amongst the crowd
Be a stronger better person.