Lifeless Teddy

You are alive yet inanimate
You are there yet not?
You are close yet far
You are precious yet worthless

You are special yet separate
You are amazing yet repugnant
You are gem but yet just a stone
So how to keep you mortal
That's a journey one has forsaken

It is.....

Hooray, hooray. It's holi---holi---holiday....yeah
Hooray, hooray, lets all come and play!

What is my plan for this holiday.
Read lotsa science books...I really have lost touch in science. Maybe studying English and Lit too much can be quite a negative thing...it made me a non-sicence person. But no worries mate (foresee where I can go in that slang), I have it all planned. I have bought a number of books to ensure that I am prepared to teach Science next year. Another subject that worries me, MATHEMATICS...why is primary Math bloody difficult. I am doing a few questions in Secondary Math, which are ridiculously easy...so why primary math is so freakingly difficult...but no qualms....again I have equipped myself with more books....I bought a few assessments books amounting to a few hundreds to help me with all these weakness or problems I may face next year...where I have to take the tail-end EM2 class...challenges, hurdles...I am prepared...along with a group of boring bunch of teachers (prolly because I don't know them well enough), I will survive next year...I will make it my best year...ya rite!

As for now, besides all those readings and school stuff I am preparing for myself, I plan to do some readings....well...trash off coz...I have not been reading since I started teaching (well I read alot, but all kids books..so that don't equate to reading). Besides that a trip, yeah, definitely a trip..I need a holiday urgently...I need to be far far and away for at least a few days....away from reality...to my dreamland where everything goes on a slow pace...love that. I would also wanna bother a few people during these holidays, one of whom I have blatantly declared...I AM GOING TO BOTHER YOU...haha...looking forward to that...stretching people's patience...hmmm...sleep....lotsa sleep...surfing, what else...well....thats enough for a few weeks...shall think of more things to do as I continue my holi...holiday....whatever it is...my teaching for this year is over (minus the tuitions off coz)...and I met a few nice kids (17 in total) during the 6 months I taught...with many wonderful memories I will surely keep with me forever and ever...ok...dramatic a little....I suppose because I am new..so that happens...yup yup...thats it for the year for me...holiday...here I come!

The Last Day of School

It is finally the last day of the school...for the kids at least. For teachers, we would have at least 3 days more next week before we finally call for a break. Six months down, I am already hating this stupid job. Well, to be frank, I still like the teaching part, very much I must say. But I hated other things about the job. I hate the fact that I am bosses around, I hate the fact that I will be teaching P5 next year, I hate a lot things. I am beginning to even hate the people...which is terribly bad...coz I am not normally like that. But no choice, I don't care anymore. Give me whatever they choose, I will try. Initially I thought of fighting for my class, but in the end, I thought it would be fruitless to do so and it will cause me a lot of trouble, so I decided against it. That also after consulting a few teachers. One of the teachers in school actually had helped me out by voicing my interest to go up with my current class. However, after giving some excuses, I was given another class by the PowerCamp coz one particular person ( the big heads off coz) think I am trained in webblogging....like whatever, everyone can do it...not that difficult. It doesnt take an idiot to learn it....so they shouldnt have a problem with it....but because of it, I am stuck...like whatever ( I am not in English or IT, the two depts handling this), but I have to do it...coz the Powercamps said I have to. Unhappy Unhappy UNHAPPY

Which is better?

Questions to Ponder:

Question 1:
You are given to 2 diamonds to choose from. First one, you love it but it is beyond your means. The second is just okay and you are not keen about. Which diamond would you choose and your reason for it.

Question 2:
You are an angel. You are required to send a person one wish. What would that wish be and your reason for it.

Question 3:
After a long tiring trip, someone ask you out. Who would be the likely person for a yes?
a)Your parents
b)The one you love
c)A friend
d)An enemy
Your reason for it?

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Whatever it is

You don't want to be near
Coz you fear of the rumour you hear

You don't want to be seen
As if it is a sin

Do you really care?
ASK!
That I wouldn't dare

Hurt by this is great,
Life becoming a dread

Could I bury this
Leave it as a hiss

Wish it is that easy
This brain is getting fuzzy
Dealing with it is too dizzy
Making one crazy

Pain

If only I could run,
I would have been far gone.
If only I could hide myself,
It would have been buried deep.

I am losing the control I once have
I am losing the faith I once conquer
I am losing touch of the being that I once held
I am losing the trust I once have for myself

This pain is too much
The anger is too crazy
This hell is too traumatising
This life is too tiring.

Pain

I feel like hailing
I feel like yelling
I can’t take it no more
I have to learn to let go

But why, why am I such a woozy?
But why, why can’t it be easy?

I am tired of pretending
I am sick of seeking the truth

I have lost the track
From all the lies
I have lost the faith
From all the pain

Another Arrow from the PowerCamp

Gosh, yet another arrow...and this time round for the internal audit...how am I suppose to answer the questions....how...how...how...gee....why am I so unlucky....always arroewed to do such things....why am I punished for the lost of those two laptops when I will eventually have to pay for it...why why why....well...I know there will never be answers to all my questions...and no is never an option...the options are always yes or yes to any questions asked....so pointless...just face it and do...the choice isnt mine to make...I have learnt to go with the flow and do whatever is needed of me without any questions...the more you ask...the more work is given to you...so shut up and just do the work assigned to you...sad...but thats life work is for many I suppose...not just for me.