A few people have written to me about the way I wrote my poems. I am extremely thankful for all the comments. Most mentioned abt how depressing my poems are and it does not seem to reflect the way I look. My only take for that is, "Never judge a book by its cover". Well, I am not saying I am a depress freak, neither am I saying I am living in heaven, off coz, in life there are ups and downs...some of those I have written co-relate to my life, others are observations or objects of my imagination.
Anyway, I tried to give a shot at writing a happy poem, A slip of happiness, but after writing it, I realise, its not all happy, probably thats how I see life, never truely happy, or maybe I dont appreciate life enough...whatever it may be, I suppose just read it and enjoy it!
I want to offer you my life
I want to offer you my soul
I want to offer you my being
For my passion for you is real
But all I can offer is a ray of light
A sip of hope,
A wish upon the star
A cup of happiness
For all I can offer you is
MY HEART
Well, in this poem we may see it in different aspect. I suppose when one reads it, one may think I am writing of my love for a guy, which is not true. It is written for my passion and love which is slowly depleting, especially after today.
Monday, May 22, 2006
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Finally: An Official Letter
I finally receive an official letter for my posting...it took MOE this long to send me my posting, unshockingly, I got back the practicum school. Well, without my buddy this time round. They broke our force. Now left the two of the crazy three there in the school. Will I be as crazy with one of my buddies sent to another school? I really dunno. But am I stress about going back? Kinda! Its a new challenge and I sure hope I will be okay there...wont ruin the kids life...not intentionally at least...must write that clause....hehe...Anyway....I am ready to face the new challenge....excited about the new challenge? Nope not really...thats a fact of life...who loves work...not me definitely!
Blotter On!!!
Well, you know...that is definitely the favourite activity of my group...my NIE group off coz...if one person blot the face...everyone will do it...like yesterday...we were at Civil Defence Academy...it was to me a cool place...they showed us advance technology, and the Red Rhino...looks pretty cool...I even got an opportunity to hold the hose, yesh....when I on the pipe...I did jerk behind a little...I even asked the fireman...if I would fly away...he said.."No worries.., you wont coz I'm behind u"....and yeah, it was fun...
But again, the highlight was at the canteen, when every single one of us in the group, namely, Angiebie, Suzanne, Jujubie, Masiebie, Elise and myself blotted our faces. We even compared the amount of oil we have on our faces...hehe...isnt that cool...hahahaha....
But I must say, the last few weeks or so, we have all come closer to one another, having a lot of time spent together and getting to know each others strengths and weaknesses...thats really really cool...I sure hope...this frienship will go on...more blotter days together, spending time doing crazy things together, becoming food critics and confusing waiters with our ordering style and all....may there be more of that together..coz its definitely FUN and ENJOYABLE!
But again, the highlight was at the canteen, when every single one of us in the group, namely, Angiebie, Suzanne, Jujubie, Masiebie, Elise and myself blotted our faces. We even compared the amount of oil we have on our faces...hehe...isnt that cool...hahahaha....
But I must say, the last few weeks or so, we have all come closer to one another, having a lot of time spent together and getting to know each others strengths and weaknesses...thats really really cool...I sure hope...this frienship will go on...more blotter days together, spending time doing crazy things together, becoming food critics and confusing waiters with our ordering style and all....may there be more of that together..coz its definitely FUN and ENJOYABLE!
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Sing! My angel of music...
Not exactly angelic voices. But well, my friends and I went Ka-ra-o-ke-ing together (finally after soooooooooo long of trying to convince everyone to do). I don't know if everyone enjoys it but we had a whole lot of fun nevertheless. Let me go through each of them and the speciality.
Starting with...
Mas, she sang Unbreak my heart with full expression....and you should have seen the action...it was swaying Elise...hahahaha....the dude was looking super stressed when Mas approached him and singing...hahahaha...but at least...that got him singing eventually...and mas....shy too intially...but after a while....she went on pretty well...singing her way...now back to elise
Elise, boy...the guy is super shy...or pretending to be shy...hehe...it was sooo hard to get him to sing. But when the song Creep by radiohead was on, he sang it in full force, and its so suitable for a man...the song went like...I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo, what the hell I'm doing here...I don't belong here....it must have been what he felt at that moment..next Suzanne
Suzanne, I tell you is the Queen of karaoke...definitely, she knows every single song I selected and some of which she selected, no one even knows....she knows a lot of song....she even said...and I quote...the lyric just come to your head...how so....I don't know...hehe, then there's Ju
Ju, we had a whole selection of Backstreet boys songs...and gee...the gal...knows a lot of those guys songs...she was singing to most of their songs...though she refused to use the microphone most of the time....so difficult to get her to use the mike to sing....and then theres me...
I felt like a deejay...was asking them to choose songs to sing...no one seems to be doing it..so what I did, I went to chose practically most of the songs, most of which are karaoke songs...hehe...then finally..I wnted to sing this rock version of an indonesian song ended up with the dangdut version which was irritating..but I sang it still...though most of the time...out of tune...coz I have only heard the rok version of the song...hehe
So whats our finale song...this classic malay rock song...hehehe...we...us...sang that song together...its Suci dalam Debu...means Purity in Ashes..haha...and again this time round, elise refused to sing the 'kental' song. It was one of the moments we all let loose and get comfy with each others nonsense and croaking...overall...I enjoyed it soo much, especially the post singing dinner....it was one of the many best moments of spent with my NIE buddies...you people are the greatest...too bad Angie wasnt around to join the croaking session...it would have been a complete force.
Starting with...
Mas, she sang Unbreak my heart with full expression....and you should have seen the action...it was swaying Elise...hahahaha....the dude was looking super stressed when Mas approached him and singing...hahahaha...but at least...that got him singing eventually...and mas....shy too intially...but after a while....she went on pretty well...singing her way...now back to elise
Elise, boy...the guy is super shy...or pretending to be shy...hehe...it was sooo hard to get him to sing. But when the song Creep by radiohead was on, he sang it in full force, and its so suitable for a man...the song went like...I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo, what the hell I'm doing here...I don't belong here....it must have been what he felt at that moment..next Suzanne
Suzanne, I tell you is the Queen of karaoke...definitely, she knows every single song I selected and some of which she selected, no one even knows....she knows a lot of song....she even said...and I quote...the lyric just come to your head...how so....I don't know...hehe, then there's Ju
Ju, we had a whole selection of Backstreet boys songs...and gee...the gal...knows a lot of those guys songs...she was singing to most of their songs...though she refused to use the microphone most of the time....so difficult to get her to use the mike to sing....and then theres me...
I felt like a deejay...was asking them to choose songs to sing...no one seems to be doing it..so what I did, I went to chose practically most of the songs, most of which are karaoke songs...hehe...then finally..I wnted to sing this rock version of an indonesian song ended up with the dangdut version which was irritating..but I sang it still...though most of the time...out of tune...coz I have only heard the rok version of the song...hehe
So whats our finale song...this classic malay rock song...hehehe...we...us...sang that song together...its Suci dalam Debu...means Purity in Ashes..haha...and again this time round, elise refused to sing the 'kental' song. It was one of the moments we all let loose and get comfy with each others nonsense and croaking...overall...I enjoyed it soo much, especially the post singing dinner....it was one of the many best moments of spent with my NIE buddies...you people are the greatest...too bad Angie wasnt around to join the croaking session...it would have been a complete force.
Saturday, May 13, 2006
All the injuries I suffered
These are all the injuries I suffered from my cycling trip
The side of my right palm
My right knee
My right elbow
My left palm
Left near the elbow
Yeah, all those are injuries I suffered during one cycling trip. Was it painful,,,definitely! Would I stop cycling? Would that deter my spirit from trying, I doubt so. But to heal, I will keep away for a while. I am sure my friend does not think likewise, that would be the last cycling trip my friend would ever joined me...that bit I am sure...hahaha!
The side of my right palm
My right knee
My right elbow
My left palm
Left near the elbow
Yeah, all those are injuries I suffered during one cycling trip. Was it painful,,,definitely! Would I stop cycling? Would that deter my spirit from trying, I doubt so. But to heal, I will keep away for a while. I am sure my friend does not think likewise, that would be the last cycling trip my friend would ever joined me...that bit I am sure...hahaha!
Thursday, May 11, 2006
What a Pain!
Nah, its not about a person. It's about my fall. And yeah, I had a fall, from the bicycle to be exact. Everything went smoothly. Was fine throughout the journey, in fact I just was thinking to myself...I may consider the trip my friends are suggesting...cycling to desaru...its sure sounds fun...and yeah...I am cycling well...I might be slow..because of my muscle ache...but yeah...I managed to cycle pretty ok...till I had the big fall...I hit on this guy, who was luckily not injured. My friend and the dude went to the nearest shelter to clean the wound. My helpful friend cleaned the wound for me then as I was too freaking shock and was in pain to react. In fact, I was also feeling giddy. Suddenly, another 2 policemen came to help. One of them and the dude kept asking me if I am ok, which pissed me off but as I was in pain, I just kept quiet. They gave my friend the tape and plasters.
After that, everything went slow. Because of me, we were unable to cycle anymore. Feeling bad, I told my friend to just continue cycle and I'l walk on my own, but my dear friend is sweet...didnt do it. walked with me....though I am sure I must have spoilt the fun of cycling with my fall...:(....but I couldnt bend my knee without feeling the pain...so I tried to cycle but i couldnt.
We even took breaks along the way as I got tired. Luckily, though after the fall...I felt blurred, I didnt faint...my endurance to pain is low...as usual, but I was accustomed to the pain after a while, and finally about 1 km away from our destination, we cycled super slowly back to the jetty. And then off we go! That was it for the trip.
Would I stop all these cycling...no I wont, but next time I will be more carefu, especially on slopes. And yeah, I am still considering the cycling trip with my friends. Do it while you can...I suppose thats myy principle.
After that, everything went slow. Because of me, we were unable to cycle anymore. Feeling bad, I told my friend to just continue cycle and I'l walk on my own, but my dear friend is sweet...didnt do it. walked with me....though I am sure I must have spoilt the fun of cycling with my fall...:(....but I couldnt bend my knee without feeling the pain...so I tried to cycle but i couldnt.
We even took breaks along the way as I got tired. Luckily, though after the fall...I felt blurred, I didnt faint...my endurance to pain is low...as usual, but I was accustomed to the pain after a while, and finally about 1 km away from our destination, we cycled super slowly back to the jetty. And then off we go! That was it for the trip.
Would I stop all these cycling...no I wont, but next time I will be more carefu, especially on slopes. And yeah, I am still considering the cycling trip with my friends. Do it while you can...I suppose thats myy principle.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Sabah: Painful Trip
A lot of problems happened before my trip to Sabah. We were cheated of our money by our travel agent, Ahmad. Was extremely angry...I so wanted to ruin his name...but thinking bad....I am not that evil. So I decided to let the matter rest.
Then on the day of the journey, I had mixed feelings, the climb was rather scary. My dear bro accompanied me down and we had to wait rather long for the cab to finally come.
When we were at Senai Airport, we found out our flight was delayed for 1 and half hour. So we all waited patiently, and me being me, went around disturbing my friends.
When we finally reached Sabah, our agent picked us up at the airport and we made our way to hill lodge, where we stayed for a nite before our climb to Laban Rata. We started from Timpohon Gate and we had several pit stop to have a breather before continuing our journey. We reached Laban Rata after a good 6 hour plus climb. We took longer then the expected time. But yeah, it was a wonderful climb, tiring as it was, it taught me endurance and perseverance. Most importantly, it taught me patience and aim for the destination.
At 230am, we were all suppose to make our way to Mt Kinabalu. Me, being me again, chickened out. My body was in pain. My leg hurts and I had a headache. I was also too afraid, especially hearing what the guide said. Hold on to the rope tightly, if you dont want to fall to your death. Your nose will bleed due to the high altitude. All that made me fear the climb even more, so I finally made the decision not to continue and wait at Laban Rata for my friends.
While waiting at Laban Rata, I had a few weird experiences. Firstly, someone knocked on my door at about 430am. I didnt opened the door as it was scary. I just ignored the person. Then at about 15 minutes later, while lying on my side on the bed, I could feel someone breathing at my neck. That was super scary. I never felt the way I felt. It could be my imagination prolly because I was alone, so my imagination ran wild. Whatever it was, I definitely didnt see any presence, just felt it, thank goodness!
Finally, after that, at 12 noon, we all made it down and took abt 5 hours plus to go down. And off coz, we missed our flight to KL and had to rebook 7 tics to KL on the same nite. That was costly! But we had no choice.
In KL, I was pleasantly suprised when I found out my friends actually stayed on the same floor next to my room. That was really a coincidence, like what Ju said, maybe we are all fated to be together...hehe....but unfortunately we could not spend soo much time together there.
Then at nite, we went zouk. I dunno whats the big deal about the place. I ddint enjoy it much. But I just force myself to have fun...since I was already there so might as well. Then the next day, the supposed shopping trip, though I spent most of the time sitting coz my whole body was aching and I couldnt really be bothered to shop. Was more keen about sitting down and relaxing.
But despite everything, I did have the best time there had so much fun and it was definitely an experience for me...you never know...my next climb, prolly Wall of CHina..hehe
My buddies who went for the climb
Me at hill lodge feeling cold
At Timpohon Gate at Mt Kinabalu
My NIE buddies whom I met in KL
Then on the day of the journey, I had mixed feelings, the climb was rather scary. My dear bro accompanied me down and we had to wait rather long for the cab to finally come.
When we were at Senai Airport, we found out our flight was delayed for 1 and half hour. So we all waited patiently, and me being me, went around disturbing my friends.
When we finally reached Sabah, our agent picked us up at the airport and we made our way to hill lodge, where we stayed for a nite before our climb to Laban Rata. We started from Timpohon Gate and we had several pit stop to have a breather before continuing our journey. We reached Laban Rata after a good 6 hour plus climb. We took longer then the expected time. But yeah, it was a wonderful climb, tiring as it was, it taught me endurance and perseverance. Most importantly, it taught me patience and aim for the destination.
At 230am, we were all suppose to make our way to Mt Kinabalu. Me, being me again, chickened out. My body was in pain. My leg hurts and I had a headache. I was also too afraid, especially hearing what the guide said. Hold on to the rope tightly, if you dont want to fall to your death. Your nose will bleed due to the high altitude. All that made me fear the climb even more, so I finally made the decision not to continue and wait at Laban Rata for my friends.
While waiting at Laban Rata, I had a few weird experiences. Firstly, someone knocked on my door at about 430am. I didnt opened the door as it was scary. I just ignored the person. Then at about 15 minutes later, while lying on my side on the bed, I could feel someone breathing at my neck. That was super scary. I never felt the way I felt. It could be my imagination prolly because I was alone, so my imagination ran wild. Whatever it was, I definitely didnt see any presence, just felt it, thank goodness!
Finally, after that, at 12 noon, we all made it down and took abt 5 hours plus to go down. And off coz, we missed our flight to KL and had to rebook 7 tics to KL on the same nite. That was costly! But we had no choice.
In KL, I was pleasantly suprised when I found out my friends actually stayed on the same floor next to my room. That was really a coincidence, like what Ju said, maybe we are all fated to be together...hehe....but unfortunately we could not spend soo much time together there.
Then at nite, we went zouk. I dunno whats the big deal about the place. I ddint enjoy it much. But I just force myself to have fun...since I was already there so might as well. Then the next day, the supposed shopping trip, though I spent most of the time sitting coz my whole body was aching and I couldnt really be bothered to shop. Was more keen about sitting down and relaxing.
But despite everything, I did have the best time there had so much fun and it was definitely an experience for me...you never know...my next climb, prolly Wall of CHina..hehe
My buddies who went for the climb
Me at hill lodge feeling cold
At Timpohon Gate at Mt Kinabalu
My NIE buddies whom I met in KL
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Sad no more
A new beginning to life
A new chapter to begin
A new place to start
A new journey to explore
Is life that easy
Is life that hard
is life that simple
Is life that complicated
Whatever life has arrange
Persevere
Withstand the pain
Enjoy the bliss
Life will be better
Life will be more meaningful
Then you will sad no more
A new chapter to begin
A new place to start
A new journey to explore
Is life that easy
Is life that hard
is life that simple
Is life that complicated
Whatever life has arrange
Persevere
Withstand the pain
Enjoy the bliss
Life will be better
Life will be more meaningful
Then you will sad no more
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