A tiring Raya indeed

What a month it has been...full of challenges...full of arguments...full of anger...full of questions...be it at work, home or anywhere else. Work has been a real challenge...with lotsa things...home...well...home has been alrite actually..except for the fact my gran has been in and out of hospital and boy...has it been physically and mentally tiring for everyone at home. My gran has not been easy though she is sick...looking after her and her demands can also be super tiring. It has been a week after raya and today, again, she is back in hospital. And today my sis sent her to SGH, as per her request...though it is extremely far from our place and she expects us to go over practically everyday....hmmm...and work...with all the demands...dunno how is that possible...I dont even have time for friends these days...not even in raya mood

Your Choice: A Yes or a Yes

WHat kind of an option is that? THe question asked was "Are you you free to go for the workshop?" The answer to it was "No" but off course that was not taken into consideration as I was force to go whether I like it or not. I ended up going for the course. Though I didnt know what I learnt from the course, I did stay till the end of the whole thing and left feeling blur, didnt enjoy myself...another course on Mon, well...my Science course now....kinda looking forward to it...but yet nervous coz I am terrible in Science.

Ignoring the giant

Today I met the giant in school...I can't help it but to ignore her. I know it is cruel of me to do that, but I can't help it. I would rather someone comes staright to my face and tell me I am a terrible teacher. But what giant did was really ruthless, telling others...she may not like me personally, maybe I stepped her toes or simply because she dislikes my face, but that is no excuse to throw such remarks at me. Now I see her differently, now I see her as someone with big...no huge asrse on the mouth...yep...sorry giant....thats how I see you...I wish you could see this...I felt guilty for ignoring her after that, then I talked to her....which is stupid...coz I think she knew I was ignoring her in the beginning as I made it so apparent...to bad...I can't be as ruthless...I wish I could though

A tiring day indeed

I visited Nani again today...by the way...Nani is what I called my grandmother...dunno why...these few days...my heart has been beating very fast...I am very worried about her...the same person I had several arguments with....seeing her like that made me sad....to think she is a super strong woman ...now she becomes so weak....she had very low blood count today...luckily, the doctors found out...she was suppose to be discharged today...she could have suffered a heart attack due to the anaemia...

Then, as promise, I went out with my group of friends...but seriously...my heart was not in the outing...more of home and hospital..suddenly now...I am more concerned about people at home as well as my grand in the hospital...then when my friends wanted to watch a movie after our dinner together...I excuse myself...told them I need to go home...I just feel that it is inappropriate to be enjoying myself when there are so many problems back home...so I went home instead.

I am a terrible teacher!

Well...that was the remarks given to me by one of the teachers. She think I am a terrible teacher who didnt teach her class anything. I am inefficient and I did a terrible job during my first practicum...do I agree to that accusation...DEFINITELY NOT...I may not be a superb teacher....but one thing for sure...I know I am NOT a TERRIBLE teacher...I tried my best during the first as well as the second practicum...I knew all along she doesnt like me....but never expected her to tell others I am a terrible teacher. WT...thats her name by the way....was shock when 2 other teachers (2 of them: Mdm P and Ms AP) disagreed with her. Well...I thought she was a terrible teacher...her class was noisy when she was teaching yet she didnt do anything...I disciplined them....according to her...this I am not sure...the kids didnt understand a single thing that I taught to them....well...that made me think...what were the actual stuff that I taught those kids...so what I did...I looked through my practicum file....looked at the lesson plans and my evaluation forms....all of them....below are some of the things I taught the kids

1)I taught them how to write recounts...I gave them the breakdown and even showed an example and key areas found in a recount using a storyline and went thru the structure as well as the grammatical aspects of such writings. I used a skeleton as an example and asked them to fill the empty skeleton

2)Then in guided reading, the topic was on healthy living...so what I did...I showed them slides on different types of activities...then I showed slides on Animals' race...which I thought was interesting...but apparently...the kids learnt nothing...hmmm

3)Then after that I linked their Field trip with sports by showing sports for crocodiles...then I linked it to the Sports Meet as well...

4) We talked about advertisement and then I ask the kids to prepare an advertisement and promote their product. They did a role play as buyers and sellers....and I thought they had fun and there were many teaching point that was highlighted during that lesson.

5) Back to basic...I also taught grammar...unlike Mdm WT...who didnt use much IT...I used slides to show the effect for past, present and future tense...then I gave them a set of dialogue they are to identify the grammatical aspect of it...which I thought they did well...coz I wrote notes for that....if they didnt understand the lesson,...they would not have been able to do the exercise I suppose...well...what to do...I am a terrible teacher...according to Mdm WT

6)We did about sharks as well...not only did I cover the different type of sharks....I even asked the kids to research on different aspect of sharks...using KWL

7) My comparative and superlative lesson with the class went extremely well..infact...I received straight As from both my CT (Mdm WT) as well as my school supervisor...hmmm...and I was a bad teacher...yep...I dont understand.

8) I linked the earlier lesson about sharks to teach adjectives....describing words...the kids...again...did well...this was done thru wordweb...this we started with animal ESP...a game I played with them in class.

9) Linking to sharks...we talked about danerous creatures...another interesting lesson...the kids were excited about the research and were eager to share with the class about their findings.

10)Then off course....the normal lessons...those not basic fundamentals of English such as grammars, punctuation, vocabulary and all other stuff..

So...am I still a terrible teacher? I really doubt so...my hands were tight then...I cant drill those kids...I had to showcase interesting lessons to score point...thats the whole idea about practicum...anyone can vouch for that...I was always thinking of different method and trying them even though they were risky...I will always take the risk...I used learning centre, KWL, wordweb, stations, gallery and other methods to make the lesson more appealing for the kids....so am I still a terrible teacher...well....I doubt so...I can't say I am a good one...all I can say is I am trying to improve myself all the time and still learning...though I am full-fledged now....angry as I am with such remarks....it wont make me falter...it just made me stronger...to show her and people like her...I am not what she thinks I am...too bad...I got into her bad book...that I can't help...if she dislike me...I can't make her like me.