Remote

When you need me,
I am searched
When you are busy,
I am thrown aside
How used I felt.

One day, I am thrown away
As I am seen useless
New one in exchange for me

I was sent to well I belong,
The dump
Resigning to my fate,
I told myself,
"This is the new place I will be"
Either with new owner or destroyed
Time will tell

Sad as it is,
Belonging to you,
I'll never be,
Ever again

Questions

Question after question were thrown
As the answers are all vague and blurred
Sounds were made to substitute response
Definite answers are not apparent
Probably since no value is attached to it

What a week it has been...

What a week it has been for me! Super vexed…super tired. Let’s talk about being super tired.

Last Saturday was my school’s CIMO (an open-house cum racial harmony day cum many more). I was in-charged of the Haunted House. The helper I got was super terrible, always disappearing, during the décor as well as during the event itself. Lucky for me, a colleague of mine, Winston, helped me a lot by doing a whole of things for me. He was a superb help although he was busy with own booth. I’m sure the “Haunted House” was a real success with lots of people entering it.

Then Monday and Tuesday, I was an Oral examiner for P6 Oral. On the first day, I had to take 22 students (EM2 kids). I had a hard time judging these kids. Had to be fair according to the EM2 level yet I know these kids were from the tail end. However, felt better when I was testing EM3 kids. I realized I could understand those kids better.

Come Wednesday, I had to go to NIE after school for a refresher course by Prof Chia. He was kind enough to give me a refresher course and Susan (my colleague) a Crash Course on OHP (Orchid Hybridisation). At the same time, we pollinated the first seedpod from our pollination about three months ago. On that day, I got real shocks. First, when I went to the orchid area, I realized that my second seedpod is plucked by someone (I have no idea who though). Rather sad to find out that coz it is such a tedious job to get it (though many people think what I am doing is easy, UNFORTUNATELY).

Then on Thursday, the day for BT Orientation was finally over. Super tiring…the whole day event. Phew, will pass it to the next BT…too tired.

Then finally, just when I thought I’d be free on Friday, my RO smsed me and asked if I do not mind attending a launch at Suntec. Off coz I had to agree…but seriously…I am super duper tired. Then at noon, after school, I finally asked her if its alright if I don’t attend the launch and luckily she said yes.

In btw those times, I also had to prepare slides, called suppliers for oreos and all my markings. But finally, the week is over. Next week will also be another long week for me, sadly though. And this makes me think of the direction I am heading after the 4 years. Do I or do I not want to stay? The question is still left unanswered. One thing for sure, I have the opportunity to leave now if I want, but would I take it? Not sure yet! Though some friends happiness made me want to leave. But leaving everything familiar to unfamiliar ground wouldn’t be easy, definitely!

Time Must Stop

There you were talking about the gals,
There I am thinking...
Thinking about us

There we were sharing,
Sharing about them.
There I am angry,
Angry about us.

Stop!
That I must do
You have your life,
I have mine!

Stop!
The dreams!
As dreams are dreams,
Will never be a reality.

Clarity is determined
Distance is made
No matter the closeness

Star

Twinkle twinkle little star
You are up high and so far
I won't reach even with the best car
I'l put the door ajar
Pray you can enter the bar
But I forget, you are a star!

Wishes Come True

Away, thats the plan
Since asking to stay
Is never going to be

Keeping at bay
It must be
As theres no other way

Trying to say
But it just go away
The moment I m treated like hay

Come what may
Its not an option to stay

Chocolate and Coffee

Chocs and Cafe
Known for short
Both are addictive
But yet so fatal

Chocs
Taste superb
But yet the calories counting
And the pain begins

Cafe
Marvellous as always
But yet the caffeine
Allows the agony to remain

Chocs
You melt in my mouth
The moment you linger on my taste bud

Cafe
You are my friend
My mornings and afternoons

Chocs and Cafe
Both great and wonderful
Wonder which is better
And more flavourable
Not here to decide
Or worst to argue
Both have special ablities
To hypnotize you away

You think I am dumb
I think you are bright
You think I am gory
I think you are right

I think you are proud
You think I am joking

I think you are quite ordinary from the crowd
But you think I am kidding for crying out loud

You think good stuff are meant to be shared
I think it is crap
Just an idea to scare
So what the hell,
I should stop to care

With all those dares
It is so unfair
Its my bloody heart that you tear
So you can blair for all I care

Venture

Venturing in one's heart
Looking for one's self
Fruitless search
Of the uncertainty in the hearts

Searching to clear the doubts
Finally release from the burden
Of being trapped
From the heart
That doesn't care