Self-Destruction

Predefined circumstances
No compromise
Free the mind
Of thinking
And go beyond the obvious

The train was running
Without an ending
Still catching
Only to destructing

Crafted
And laid upon
The destined
Of hell
Decides

Merely something
Beyond the boundaries
Unsettled
Unfulfilled

Concealing
But yet revealing
Images of life
Floundering

Something burning
Pain yearning
Silence to discerning

Shadowing the past
Grasping
But only loneliness reveals

Unwell MatchBox 20

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
I'm feeling like
I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public

Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

I'm not crazy,
I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

Today

Today you came into my dream again
But your memory is now faint
No longer daint

I cant changed the fate
Or my birthdate
And I'll bate

For them I shall stay strong
For you who did me wrong
And stab me with a prong

I don't know what the future jells
Will there be wedding bells
I know I have gone through hell
And this time when I fell
I fell into a deep cell
I tried to yell
But you left me in the well
Wailing to the ell

You showed how much you dont care
When you say your love is just not there
Those whords I couldn't bare
To hear I do not dare
For I dont think it is fair
Coz its clear like a glare
With all your stare
That your love for me was there
Maybe I refuse to admit the blare
That you treated me like a ware
I should flare
And not easily declare
That you've put me in this tare

Story of my Life

You came into my life about nine years ago
The war memorial was where we first met
A slight of dislike on my first encounter I forgo
And continue the friendship I let

Remain friends, we did
Somehow we went on a bid
I met new people but they ended
But remain friends and never bended
Somehowthe fire between us lid

We became closer
We did a lot of things together
Though at times, I know I could be treated better
Somehow I just let that love grew deeper

Several outings and dates
Though you never want to show
In public your feelings about me
An affair, I felt with you

But again, things changed
Your affections were more readily
You were willing to meet my friends
We spent our new year together, watching the flashes of fireworks

I was hopeful that things were looking better
We were moving in tanderm
Marriage was also a topic of conversation
Then an ultimatum was made

Talked to your mum you did
And strong disapproval she made
Instead of fighting for me
Giving me up totally you did

You told me "I dont love you"
Even if get married, we will end up in a divorce
You treat me like a sis
My life became a hiss

From that confident someone
I fell into depression
Work I cant concentrate
Food I cant eat
Thinking of you is all I did

A month has passed since you drop the bombshell
That you cant be with me
That you only want me as a friend

Our meeting at Omni theatre was beautiful
A memory I will never forget
But our last meeting was painful
With you leaving me at Bugis with your mind set

I am sure life is back to normal for you
While I am still putting back the broken pieces of my heart
Don't know if it could ever be mended
To the time like before

You are the man of my dream
You always make me smile like a beam
But you left me limp
When you left me at the ream

Unhappiness Revealed

Madness in life
The mind becomes a guide
To the soul
Of immortality
For the carriage past
With just a speck of dust

Swelling the ground
The the sides mount
The day heads
By the beds
That know no hates
For the living deads

Taufiq

Things happen for a reason
And God wants us to meet
U justified my feelings
For you reciprocate
In the end, its me you left
Qualms about leaving
Just not in your existence
U threw me like hay
Maybe I am seen as one
Appreciative of your friendship
How can I may

The end

The end of an eight year relationship

We started as friends
Eight years to be exact
It blossomed at fifth year
But now I know not on your part

If I could changed that trends
To three years back
I will keep that fear
And not put you in my heart