The story: Nurkasih

Well, the synopsis of the drama is, guy strayed out of the religion in the parents (to the dad) and arrange the son to marry a religious gal of the father's choice, though both the gal and the guy were against the marriage and the guy has a gal back in Australia and the gal has an uncompleted dreams...it makes me reflect how selfish parents can be. Yes, I agree they want the best for their children, however, if your child thinks another person is right for her, accept her and not give him options which are dead end for him. I dont understand why parents in modern society react in this manner. Yes, true, this is just a story, but it is a reflection of the asian community, especially some minority groups who think very highly of their clans or groups, which to me is just stupidity. What the parents only ruin is their child's happiness and the other party who si with the child. Well, maybe its easier to look it from my view and give my comments as such as I am not a parent myself. Maybe I will never understand such circumstances and conditions as I have not reach to a point where I need to 'help' my child (if ever I have any) decide what would be good or bad for him/her. But at least, at this point of time, I am sure I will allow my child decides for himself or herself what would make the child happy. And will not give stupid conditions where I know the child has no choice but to accede to my demands.

Mani and Pedi session

Today is another manicure and pedicure session for me....I just realised that I have been going to the place a tiny bit too many times this month, wonder why....boredom I suppose! But today I have pretty nails....but now one of my big toes is spoilt...sob sob!

Liliput

Whee...I had a fantababulous time at Liliput yesterday. Well, in case you don't know what the hell that is, its miniature golf. And the best part, I won over my friends. Shhh....can't tell them..hahaha. Well, its one game I am definitely better than them, this is it. But, I did faced a few challenges, like going uphill. The ball refused to go uphill. My score would have been much better on flat ground. Well, its a start. Maybe I am fated to play golf....hmmm....maybe I should learn it professionally...haha...well...someone told me once, dream big..I think this is just fantasy on my part..lol!

The Karaoke Session That didnt happen

Yesterday, Ju, Mas, Nur and I had planned to go karaokeing before a boardgame session. But did it happen?! Nope, Nur called me at 5 pm to tell me she has overslept...when I called her at 430 for a meeting at 6. Hmmm...then Mas had an argument and keep saying she was on the way...just say you cant make it, not on the way when you are not! Thats how I feel!

Food glorious food

Last Friday was really FOOD DAY! My buddies and I had a whole lot of food, just the 3 of us with 5 dishes in front of us. We ate so much that I had skipped dinner and breakfast the next day. We had orange chicken, black pepper crab, baby kailan, seafood tomyam and beancurd hotplate. Its cheap! All the dishes with rice and all was 40 bucks...pretty cheap for a spread. And yeshie, we finished mostly all the food on the table!

Feelings

I have been feeling useless lately. I dont know why. I have been looking my the purpose in my life but yet I find no answers to it. It is scary what I thought of doing. There are many things I want to do and planned to do but all that dashed 3 to 4 months ago. Too bad, I have realised one thing through all these, nothing happens when you planned, everything seems to fumble, especially so for me. Its probably my luck. The one thing that keep me going is my work, even then some parents think I am not an efficient educator. Where they had heard it will remain a mystery but if I could share it with them, I work extremely hard for my students. Ive been doing so and I can safely say, I may not be the best teacher, Im definitely not a bad one.

The Long "Awaited" Holiday

Normally, I would look forward to holidays, always excited and gearing and planning for holidays and spending time with different people who are significant in my life. But this year, somewhat a big part of me is taken away and it makes me feel empty. Lucky for me, I have many nice people who are around who have made life a little bit easier, my colleagues whom Im spending a fair bit of time with, my buddies who are always around when I need to rant or when certain things make me depress and for the friend who is willing to hear and endure my nonsense though my views and wishes are very much against you choice in life. I have talked about weirdest issue about life as I look at life in a more microscopic view these days, it even scares me sometimes.

Time when I need you most

At the beginning,
I was looking forward to it
Spending those moments
But now that its near
With the empitiness within me
Its just a pain
To even realise its approaching

I know I'd feel miserable
I wish it could just pass
As without the purpose
The meaning is gone

Discovery

Today I found out a friend reads my blog...well...if you are reading it now, Ive told you my blog was a bore and it still is. WHat I am curious is how you find out about my blog....hmmm...Im pretty sure I never tell the url..genius indeed...im sure you are gloating and nodding in agreement right now...haha. Anyway, thanks for spending the time with me. And ya, I have been eating, in fact, Im a glutton now...hehe

Random

Ambiguity

Billowing in sorrow

Crying for the unworthy

Decadent

Effort gone wasted

For all is gone

Giving so much

Had gone too far

Imagining the happiness

Jumping into darkness

Keeping the past in the heart

Lamenting to others

Mourning in pain

Neither here nor there

Or just beneath the stars

Piling the sadness

Quilting the pain

Resting but yet yearning

Starting anew

Trying but to no avail

Unimaginable ending

Victory was expected

Won't that be sweet

Yet everything gone

Zealous no more