How do you know he cares?

He says "we" instead of "I"
He wants to talk to you
He is able to make you laugh
He doesn't laugh at you, He laughs with you
He comforts you when you sad
He remembers things about you without you telling him
If you cry, he offers a shoulder without being sexual
He talks about the future of both of you together
He wants to meet you
He introduces you to his mum
He wants to meet your family
He compliments you on your look
His friends know who you are

Off course, the list continues...

Peak of Stress

I am at the peak of my stress mode. Many questions in my head. Are my students ready? Can they sit for the paper confidently? Will they pass or fail? What if they fail? Does that mean I am a bad teacher? Does it mean I had not given them enough remedials? Should I try to give them more remedials? How much more? Gosh.......I am stressed. I hope my students can make it. Please, let them remember all the things taught to them.

The Event

Glory days are back to stay
It marks the way of living
Looking forward and awaited for far too long
Eventually it is coming
Gathering of minds and souls
Venturing to new beginnings
Exploring the options
So fun it is!
Let the fun begins...

Today

Today, I am learning to accept
I am learning to forget
I am also learning to let go

Today, I hope things are better
I hope it will be okay
I also hope I am stronger

Today, I am staying happy
I am staying positive
I am also staying healthy

Today, I am avoiding pressure
I am avoiding stress
I am also avoiding anger

Just

No apprehension
Just broken
No care
Just desire
No effort
Just forgery
No grins
Just happiness
No jokes
Just kindness
No lamenting
No mimicry

Nonetity
Not open
Just partnership

Quarrels
No relationship
Just severe
No tension
Just unmoving
No vengence
Just withering
No yakking
Just zonked

Pretender

I can't stand the her, so pretentious. Dislike her . I don't know why I dislike her even more. I have been very accomodating but no more of such. Days of being nice is over!

How do you let go

This time go for it? But how? How do you let go of someone you love? Especially if it has been 8 years! You have tried your best, patience, well, its definitely your game but even that is running out. Whats your plan is not his? So why be stuck in it?

Its always easier said than done. Many has said let go!Acknowledge the end! Accept there's no future and reestablish life! But how?! How to do that when you are feeling so miserable?

Well everything happens for a reason. Accept
that reality, move forward, plan for your future!

But how to forget the past when it is there before you?!

Let go! Free yourself from the hurt!

More pics of Lombok

Lombok Pics

Lombok Here I come

I am going LOMBOK...yeah....bored and sick of my life here....If I can go far on my own, I would have done it! Stay away and be far and be happy for at least a month! But too bad, I can't. So this short trip is fine!

Point of no return

Time and again I told you its over
Time and again I took cover
By thinking you are the perfect lover

Time and again you hurt me
Time and again I let it be

I'm tired of the cry
My patience is running dry

The only thing that is keeping me strong
Is this love I have inside

How long more can I endure
That I can't tell for sure
Thought this love we have is pure
You have tinted it to a point of no cure

Teacher

I want to be a teacher
Who will be a giver
It is not about getting richer
But about helping the weaker
I want to be a teacher
Who can be a motivator

Tuesday

Today is Tuesday
I started the day
Feeling gay
But you treated me like hay

Come what may
I'l make sure I don't pay
By keeping at bay
And stop the play

I thought you'd stay
That's what you say
So I just followed you way
But I see that I am heading for the slay

2001 to 2008

Dislikes when first met
Won't last was the bet
Mind was already set
That you would be thrown off the jet

But stayed as friends we did
I think I did my fair bit
To keep up the lid
And we really hit

What was friendship has changed
Into something strange
We went out of range
And put me in lange

An ultimatum I have decided
To leave coz I am jaded
The dreams I had had faded
With my heart embedded

A Glare

You said you can't say it
I know you aren't
Trying to force you to say it
Is something I can't

I have made a choice
Through the coy
I am creating all the joys
Thinking it is just a toy

I know I have said it before
And its a real bore
I need to get to the core
Before I walk out of the door

Friends, we are
Who have crossed the bar
A game that went to far
Have created the friendship
Ajar

Before it is too late
And leaving it to fate
I am opening the gate
And let go all the hate

It is clear
My dear
Of your fear
To set the gear

Coz love is not there
And you dont dare
Coz it may not be fair
As it is a glare
That you dont care

What is Happening

Why have I not been updating?
Coz so much had happened
And I lost count of them

Time is not on my side
It only makes me tired
Thinking of tomorrow

Why must tomorrow comes
When I am still unhappy of today

Celebrate Living

Why are we sad of small matter
When they tried so hard to live
Why do we keep complaining
When they are happy to see the day

Are we ever thankful of life?
When they struggle for theirs
Are we appreciative of our surroundings?
When they work hard to stay living

Travelogue: Bukit Tinggi Colmar Tropicale

I didnt get a chance to go far as I only had a short freetime due to my 'maid' duties. So I went to Bukit Tinggi and Kuala Lumpur in Malaysia instead with my friends and my sis. We set off at about 8 am. But reach KL at 4 pm. Super long journey. Pretty tiring too. Then we set off to Bt Tinggi after that. The place was really beautiful

Love

Maybe one day, you'd love me the way I loved
Maybe one day, you care the way I cared
Maybe one day you'd be missing me
Coz I will no longer be there

Maybe one day, you'd want me the way I wanted you
Maybe one day, you'd cry for me the way I cried for you
But maybe on that day,
I will not be there for you
Coz maybe that day, I do not want you

Love or love lost?

If you love it let it go, if it never comes back, it was never meant to be. Is this true?