Winter's tale

The winter
Trembling in cold
No where to hide
No shelter to seek

Helpless
Deserted
Once happy...
Now bitten.

Moments

Going down again,
Falling.
Not handling it.
Smiles though the sufferings...

Stll laughing in between cries
The avalanche that never ends
Manageable? Continue? Finish it?

Even with countless pain
So which path?
At lost...
No solution
Seeing a sad ending

Life

Thought I am strong
But I am weak
Presumed life is progressing
But it is worsening

If it is suppose to be better
Why is it going down?
If it is happiness
Why is the tears?

Since when is life ever good?
Since when life is ever pleasant?
One could lie,
But for how long?

If only life can stay as it was
If only life doesnt move
Probably life could be better
Probably there will be more smiles

Now a smile is even hard
For there isnt any reason to
No more...
Since life is a monotone

Changing it is a fluke
Removing it is a forbidden
Which road then one heads?
Since its the crossroad is skewed

Inspired by Le Grande Voyage

As the journey is far and wide
I need you as my guide

You sure your mind is right?
You do know its hell of a ride?

I know its not easy,
But God is with me

Sometimes I think you are crazy
But I just have to let you be

Your task is easy
Just to drive me

Im not being a woozy
But the thought makes me hazy

Just let her stay
I dont see her stray

I'd rather keep her at bay
Then let her lead the way

Dont listen to him
He doesnt seem honest

You and your wimp
He could be a bonus

Why do you ahev to give
When we dont have our dough

Im sure we will live
After giving her the doe

We are here finally
Your wish did come true

I doubt I will see the end
But I shall not runt

Get your bus
Shall await for your return,
That I must

Why dont you reply
You are not even coming back
I scream and shout,
BE BACK!
Cut the act!

Oh no!
My worst fear is here!

I learnt a thing or two
Throughout this journey with you
I see the jab
Of the generation gap

I used not to care
Now you made me aware
IF ONLY YOU ARE STILL HERE
I would have care for you my dear
FATHER!

You

With you...
I see darkness, tears, pain
With you...
I see a broken dream

Yet, with you...
I feel ecstatic, gladness comfort
Yet, with you
I feel endless happiness

But why do I feel hurt while rejoicing
But why complications in the joy

It is endless misery in a bliss
A pain in pleasure

Wounded

Why the hell did I lose again?
Darn, I knew I will fail!
I know I have the lethal key
Would I use it?
No, I wont

Would I want to ruin and hurt
The already wounded?
No!
By hurting the fallen
I hurt myself
But do I care about myself?
NO!

What I want is not to injure the wounded heart
Especially one that I care
Never today, tomorrow, ever
By hurting you, I hurt myself the greatest!

Reflective Mode

Are you a fool?
Who the hell you think you are?
I know I'm no superwoman
I can deal it myself

You think you are doing well?
Your reasonings are ridiculous
I will if everyone stop asking
I will deal it myself!

How the hell are you solving it?
You don't even have a clue
I am already in the midst of it
I know I can do it!

Is self-destruction your resolution?
That is never a solution!
That is never the part of the plan
And I know I need to settle it myself!

A dot

A dot
First a drop
The spot expands
Grow into an atom

A dot
A droplet
And tt spreads
Like a mite

A dot
A piece
Stump on its own
With a great pinch

A dot
A dent to the being
Marks the conclusion
Creates a finality

A dot
The stroke
Keeps to a standstill
Marks the end