Need to be me

I don't want to let you go
But I have no choice

I don't want you to leave
But I know you will

I don't want to hope
But my heart is doing so

I don't want you to disappear
But I know you are

I don't know what I want anymore
As what I want is not what I will get

So to hell with me
To hell with life

I just need to move on
I just need to be strong
I just need to be the me
I know best!