Disappointment

Untrue to tell you I am fine
Coz I am not
Untrue to tell you I am okay
Coz it is just pretense

Lying to tell you I am alrite
When you asked
Lying to tell you I am solid
When I am at rock-bottom

I dont wish to pretend
I dont wish to falter
But I know you will bent
And everything will alter

I dont wish for changes
I want it as it is
But I also know my wishes
Is not in God's list

I just cant sit
Coz my life dont not fit
Even when I have the wit
We can never hit